Sick and tired.

I'm physically and mentally drained.. Who can understand how I feel right now? Friendship problems.. When can these things stop already.. If everything could be solved by me committing suicide, I think I will. I don't know why, it just seems like these problems are going to be dragged forever.. I just want to reconcile with jasmine and forget everything an start anew. But problems keep coming out.. I cried for two days.. Not continuously, but every time as I think of problems in life, tears keep rolling down. I'm not being dramatic.. It's true..

Seems like I have to disappear in order for these problems to be settled.. How good would it be if I didn't exist at all..

Sometimes I wonder to myself, what would it be like If one day I went missing.. Would anybody even notice it.. Would anyone even bother to look for me.. Sigh.
Where have the happy me went to? I wanna go back to kindergarten life.

How to be happy again? I'm so tired of everything.. I just need a shoulder a d listening ear right now...